Well I'm getting totally spoiled this week.  I'm only having to work at Engenio and it's the afternoon/night job.  It's really nice to be able to sleep in until 10-11am but I really needed to get out of the habit.  I won't be working hd until a week from today and it's only going to be from noonish - about 3pm.  Then we leave for the trip after I get off from Engenio at 10:30p.  Well depending if we have everything packed or not.  Which will probably be a not, since I have to work that day.  But we will be leaving in the wee early morning hours on wednesday then.

I'm so freaking bored right now.  Not one single call have I gotten today and the emails are sparse too.  Most ppl are still probably on holiday or just not wanting to do any real work until 06.

Well I'm planning on getting trashed for New Year's Eve.  I'm dying to get drunk.  I know it sounds bad, but it's been way too long and I just feel like it.  DH has to work until around 10pm that night.  I'm going to get some chips and salsa, chicken wings, and some other snacks and some champagne and jack daniels coolers and hopefully be nearly gone by the time he gets home. LOL

Men.. uh.. why do they have to make life so confusing for us when we can do it ourselves. :lol

Well DH was going on that I'm going to be 24 this next year and was like :wow  (I'm thinking ok.. it's almost half way to 30 but what's the big deal :hm)  Then he starts to go on about how maybe we should have a baby.  (I just sat up and said you can't just say that we need to have a discussion).  I'm not really sure what to think about this.  He's done this (started talking about having babies out of the blue for the past 4 months or so) and then it dies down.  I have no clue if he's really serious about it or if he's just wondering if it's the 'time' or not right now.  And of course him being a guy thinks that you're going to get preg the first time that you try. :lol Well I guess it could happen.

I'm still on the patch so I know that I'd be about 3 months before we would even 'start' trying anyways.  I'm just not sure if I'm ready yet.  I know once I lose the 15 lbs then physically I'll be ready.  But why is it when I was so desperately wanting to be preg a couple of years ago that he was the scared one and now it's vice versa. :confused

We did have a scare a couple of months ago.  Well I didn't tell him until after I got :af though.  But before :af came I was sort of getting excited about if I was.  I think I'm just wishy washy still and I'm not sure what I want.

We've talked about it every couple of months when it comes up.  My biggest thing is religion (I'm Christian, he's Hindu).  How are we going to raise them.  I guess I'm just scared because I don't know what to do and how the grandparents are going to react.  Really I should be worried about what they think, but on the other hand I am because I want the kids to have them in their lives.